Cocktail anyone???? Not just your ordinary cocktail but rather the cocktail of meds that many of those who live with mental illness have on a daily basis. In truth I'd say you are better off sticking to your alcohol or non alcoholic cocktails. And if those of us already ingesting "cocktails" are going to join you and follow medical advice we better stick to the "virgin" cocktail drinks.

So where is all that thirst inducing rambling going??? Well my "cocktail" isn't working as well as it should lately. Struggling with a quadruple diagnosis requires a lot of mixing, pouring, shaking, stirring, adding ingredients, substituting ingredients etc.

The black, ominous cloud of depression is once again plaguing my spirit. I struggle through the overwhelming sadness and weariness to pull myself out of bed and face the day that I feel I have no strength for. This has been my daily routine for the last several weeks. Not one that is unfamiliar as it has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. But this one, it really blindsided me. As if to say "wake up Angela" don't ever forget that you are mentally ill and as a result of your quadruple diagnosis you will ALWAYS struggle. Where life may come easier for others, that won't be the case for you. Not that you'd be without joy and blessings...it is just that you'll feel the rougher times that much more intensely. And then if the "mentally ill labels" are working against each other, well that's why we have to keep a careful eye on the ingredients in the "cocktails" you ingest.

Hmmm...as I read back through this I struggle to make sense of it. But I suppose that is the nature of my mind right now ~ struggling unclarity with a heavy dose of depression so that you really can't think. So lest I prove myself an "incompetent" soul I shall quit this entry now.

Welcome to my world....stop by for a drink or two now and again.