April 14 ~ 4

It has been a very draining and exhausting day on all levels ~ physically, emotionally, intellectually and psychologically. Which likely accounted for my robotic movements and speech. The "holding it together" until I could tuck my little princess into bed. Racing Beanie Babies is a good distraction when you are feeling the weight of the world upon your spirit. Thank heaven for the laughter of a six year old! :) That of course was preceded with several "I hate yous" from her and her brother throughout the day. Hmmm....you hate me because I don't want you to have too much sugar...if that makes me a "bad mom" then I gladly accept that title. Of course making light of it doesn't take the sting away from hearing such words (despite the fact that it is a common part of childhood development) and doesn't dry the tears I shed while attempting to eat dinner. I must say, all things considered, I was able to put on my finest masks and make it through the day without falling apart...despite the fact that I was crumbling inside.