Just woke up yet again from another horrendous nightmare, one verging so close to reality that I had to "check my bearings" when I awoke. Four hours of fitful sleep......I suppose that is nearly the same as four hours of fitful wakefulness, except the only one who really suffers while I attempt to get some semblance of sleep is myself.
What I wouldn't give to be lying there peacefully like the rest of you are......you don't realize how lucky you are. Peace....what is that? Something I have rarely, if ever, felt in my life.
My body is vibrating.....crying those dry tears which is worse than crying what most call real tears. I wonder how many other people experience what I refer to as dry tears? They are even more painful than what is referred to as the normal tears.
Well I suppose I best try and attempt to get some more sleep. Perhaps I'll be blessed and the spiraling thoughts will subside and give me a brief reprieve......
About Me
- Angela
- A caring, loving woman filled with passion who struggles on a daily basis with the challenges of living with Mental Illness. This blog will be about my journey of discovery as I emerge into the light....to hopefully a healthier place through entering the world of Mental Illness treatment and management on a daily basis. Parts of this blog will be very dark...just as living with a broken mind and fragile spirit can be very dark. And then there will be entries, like days along my journey, that are filled with light and hope. Join me, hold my hand, "listen" and experience the journey of living with mental illness. It is my hope that this blog will provide insight that will reduce the stigma and will provide a realistic picture of what people with mental illness may face on a regular basis.
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